As you can see, my girls have a sense of humor. It is one thing to write in the dust (the top of my headboard), but it is another to write the date in the dust. Once someone does that you are forced to clean, otherwise, someone might see what a sloppy housekeeper you are.
We allow spiders to live in our house so long as they aren't poisonous and they aren't trying to live in a high traffic area. The scripture says that spiders live in king's palaces and indeed they do. I don't disturb wasps from nesting and living around the outside of the house because they eat spiders and we had a black widow once.
On the left is a picture I treasure very much. It's my grandmother and me when I was a baby. Granny wanted me to remember our time together when mom lived with them and she kept me while mom worked and when mom dated. Granny is wearing an owl pendant that mom gave her, that pendant was very important to mom. I wear an owl necklace sometimes, owls ask "who?" My imagination takes over when I think about the possible significance.
It is commonly known that in the Bohemian grove they have a large owl that they use to open a two week free for all for influential people, they use it in the "cast your care" ceremony. I heard that it was at just such a meeting that it was decided to "end" WWII........what a heavy decision that was.
In the middle is a painting called "The card players." Paul Suzanne (sp?) painted ordinary people doing ordinary things and he was chided for it by other painters. I was drawn to this painting for that very reason though. After I bought a canvas print of it I then researched it and found out that it sold for the most money of any other painting for awhile, until someone eventually paid more for something else. The person who paid so much for one of these (he painted several) was someone who lives in Dubai. If you don't know, Dubai is a very wealthy town, city, metroplex. I'm under the impression it's mainly built for elite oil barons from the middle east.
I look at the painting and I notice that one man is playing his cards close to the vest and isn't smoking. He's not the kind of person to telegraph anything or to reveal anything, the other man is showing his cards and smoking, he would tell your secrets seeing as how he's careless with his own. Cards, "playing solitaire till dawn with a deck of fifty-one." Everyone knows you can't win like that.
To the right is a picture of my children when they were small. Picture day was stressful for them so they all look unhappy, I was also unhappy and so was my husband John. Nevertheless, I'm thankful to have that picture.
So my sister visited and I started rattling off to her about my things and then she said to me, "Everything is symbolism to you, isn't it?" By Jove I think she's got it. Yes, everything is symbolic to me, lately I've been decorating my house with deliberation.
"Bigfoot is blurry." The only thing I care to explain about this picture is why the tower is upside down. I bought this plate with Paris Hilton in mind. The simple life was filmed in Alma, AR and my other grandmother's name was Alma. Being of unsound mind, I thought the Hilton girl was mocking me and letting me know that she had been in the reflecting pool which was a chat room online. Since her name was Paris and I came across a plate representing Paris, I thought it fitting to commemorate her existence, seeing as how I felt that in her own way, she had acknowledged mine.
When I first had internet access, I typed in "bigfoot" and found a site that you had to be a member of it to get in. The screen looked mysterious and ominous but I later discovered that bigfoot is a website for international trading of some sort. I had associated in my mind as a distributor of drugs. The act of stepping on something is to add other ingredients to make more money and to keep people from having an overdose. I've never had enough faith in people to be an addict, addicts are too easy to kill. I also associate the term "bigfoot" with whoever it is that controls the programming on tv. The commercials, what shows are on, that sort of thing.
You see, I had this idea that if a person did it right, they could use tv to communicate with large networks of people and keep them informed but on a more personal level. This idea wasn't geared toward nefarious activities, but I think it might have been used in that way. Don't worry, my shot will kick in in a day or two.
Don't you know Paris and her brother know many people in that sort of position. I believe my house is being listened to and I wonder how often the tv is communicating with the phone and I'm just along for the ride. Two days, don't worry, it's just my mental illness kicking in. Sometimes I turn it all off so I can have my quiet time and analyze whatever it is I'm thinking at the time. I also like quiet when I pray to the Lord.
Peacock feathers are also important to me. Our neighbors when I was two had some peacocks and I wanted a tail feather. I would chase them to try to get a tail feather. One day I was running among them and the alpha male looked me right in the eye, I could tell he was going to let me catch him, which he did. Mom said he eat me up, as they say, and I quit chasing them. I'm afraid of them now, but I'm fascinated by their beauty. A peacock feather is the first thing I can remember ever wanting just to have it.
When I was about five or six we had a mud puddle in the yard. After it would rain I'd go outside and squish my toes in that mud puddle. During the dry spells it got to where I'd use the hose to fill the puddle. One day I went outside and the puddle was filled with dirt. To this day I don't know why it was that mom decided to do that. Me playing in that puddle wasn't hurting anything.
Strange, the things you remember and the things you forget.
